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Golden ([personal profile] goldenkirbichu) wrote2012-02-26 11:56 pm

Wow, I'm really terrible at being consistent, aren't I?

... l-lol... What is with me and never writing about my life?

...

Oh yes, that's right. Because it's boring. That probably explains it!

8|

It's a pretty sad sack of existence when the most significant thing I did today was get Pokemon ROM patching to work properly. /facepalm... On the bright side, though, I did do something marginally fascinating recently, so I should probably say something about that before it becomes entirely irrelevant and too far in the past to be worth mentioning.

RIGHT. So let's get on that, shall we? /yea

... Rewind to two days ago, really, because something significant happened then. Wanna know what it is?

It's called... GOLDEN WENT OUTSIDE HIS HOUSE AND INTERACTED WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS WILLINGLY!!!!!

I know! It's such a shocking and rare occurrence that it's about equal to the idea of seeing the sky itself rend apart and a chorus of angels spiralling down flanking the Flying Spaghetti Monster carrying Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny singing a duet while the entire cast of the Care Bears backs the vocals up with an acapella rendition of "Don't Stop Believin'".

... In other words, it's the kind of insanity that happens once in a very rare occasion, namely because I never really have any reason to do it.

However this time was different, because I had - gasp - motivation, in the form of two Luceti-muns! Or... rather, in the form of a Luceti-mun and a mun-to-be: our very own Mon (the mun of the lovely Little Mac and Isaac) and PurePlum (the to-be mun of the equally-lovely Sabriel).

About a week and a half ago, Plum casually brought the idea of us meeting up in one of our Plurks - for the life of me I can't remember which - and I was immediately enthusiastic. As per my usual attitude for things, I tossed up a planning Plurk and started hashing stuff out for it right away.

... So I had a pretty good idea of what I was going to do relatively far in advance. The destinations were mostly going to be Plum's idea though, because - in all seriousness - I would have gone there simply to stand in a corner and talk for six hours. Social things are not my particular realm of expertise, as I'm sure you all can guess. I was just happy to think that someone actually wanted to willingly allow me to interact with zir. 8'D

Either way, some more backstory on this whole thing - Plum used to live in Toronto, which is pretty close to where I live, and is IRL friends with Mon - who also lives in Toronto (I guess that is kind of self-evident if they're IRL friends). However, Plum is in the process of moving for school, and thus she wanted to meet up with me before her move made that essentially impossible.

So there were multiple reasons to go - firstly because it's nice to have a break in routine for me (even if I get attached to my routines), secondly because it meant meeting awesome people face to face, and thirdly because it was a limited-time opportunity.

... Turns out my sibling was interested in coming with us too! So I asked Plum and Mon if this was alright with both of them, and it was. So far so good, right? Right. (Not that it ever gets particularly bad! Unless you count epic leg pain bad, but I'll get to that after. o/`)

There were difficulties with the day we'd picked - namely, that there were all these hand-flailing warnings about an epic snowstorm on that day (Friday to be specific; insert Rebecca Black jokes here). But as it was the only day that really worked, I wasn't particularly fazed, even if my parents were like OMGZ IT COULD BE REALLY BAD RECONSIDER!!

Either way, so on the day of the trip, I get up, derp around, try to get my stuff together, all of that.

Then I discover the horrible truth of the day - my winter coat is covered in cat hair. Noooo! Hereafter I spent about ten to fifteen minutes attempting to de-cat-hair the coat - time that really did not need to be wasted. This, combined with my sibling's failure to rouse herself at any decent time and our resultant scrambling around, meant that we ended up getting to the bus station... literally like a minute too late for our projected bus trip. 8| It was like the universe trollfacing at us.

It also meant that in my panic I forgot my paper with Plum and Mon's phone numbers on it. /sob Good thing for iPhones with 3G networks! Managed to retrieve them from the relevant planning Plurk, like a boss. Or rather, a pseudo-boss, since a boss would've already had the damn numbers on his person.

... So we had to wait another twenty minutes or so for the next bus to arrive. Herp! Oh well. It wasn't particularly bad, just a little cold... nothing we couldn't deal with. |D

We get on the bus then, and I call Plum - she doesn't pick up, so I leave a message on her answering machine, as is generally the polite thing to do (or so I've been told), explaining that we'll probably be late. Amusingly, she calls not even fifteen minutes later to tell us the exact same thing. 83 So no harm done in the end!

Anyway, sibling and I walked over to the station and stopped in front of our designated meeting area. Then we proceeded to stand there twiddling our thumbs, glancing around awkwardly and generally looking like people who only ventured out of their dark underground caves long enough to check if the sun still existed and hadn't spontaneously novaed last week.

That lasted for about a minute, during which we weren't sure if we should've called them and asked where they went or something... ... and then we turned around and they were pretty much right on the opposite side of the kiosk from us. DERP.

After that got straightened out, we headed off to our destination - that is, lunch. On the way there I mostly hung back with Mon; we did a lot of talking about RPing. (I estimate about 90% of the conversation was RP-centric or focused on our muses. We're awesome, clearly.) My sibling talked to Plum out in front~ o/` So nobody was left out!

Unfortunately for us, though, when we arrived at our lunch destination - which was a small Japanese restaurant - it turns out that there were too many people there to even seat us. In a way, while I was disappointed I wouldn't get to try ramen, I was also kind of glad because then I wouldn't make myself look like an idiot nearly so much. :|;

Anyway, we ended up going to a small Italian café that was right nearby instead, with the sophisticated and descriptive name of "John's Italian Café". Yep. However, the pizza that we ordered was actually deliciously-made, and so I can cut the place some slack for a silly name. <3

While (and after) we nommed, we discussed all sorts of things - everything from Sabriel's canon, to the perspective of intellectuals in Luceti, to whether PBs tend to make people more willing to tag characters, et cetera. At some points I felt like I was kind of dominating the conversation - I mean, I would've shut up if anybody wanted me to... D: I even asked if I was talking too much :|;;;; But, nobody seemed mad so I guess it was okay?

...

Either way, eventually we left, and headed to an outlet store that focuses on nerdy things, called the Silver Snail. owo For some reason I felt like I was in some kind of... geek temple, for lack of a better phrase - it was almost a little overwhelming, being in there, and I was afraid to touch anything. I know it's a little silly, but I'm not used to this kind of thing existing! |DDD; Either way, some of the statuary in there was genuinely beautifully-done... even if I couldn't help but notice the gender dichotomy, but when isn't it obvious in these things, l-lol...

... I also saw some TMNT comics. > > But I was too shy and nervous to attempt to purchase them.


Anyway, after we were done with that, Plum then directed us to another similar shop after we discovered the free XBox place (or so Plum described it) had been lost to some stupid clothing store nobody needed. 8[ For some reason I can't recall its name, but it was a much smaller store, dedicated more to anime and manga. Admittedly I recognized very few things in there, save the Pokemon and a few of the larger video game franchises, like Nintendo. I mostly amused myself trying to compare the characters in there to Lucetians. /even bigger nerd than usual

...

So after that we convened at the door and asked ourselves what we wanted to do. Mon decided she wanted ice cream. I echoed this idea in basically every way possible - so Plum's all "What about crépes?"

We were pretty much unanimous in our "Yay, crépes!"

... That required even more walking though. :| But crépes > non-painful leg muscles, so off we went! Eventually we did make it there and were ushered in by a nice waitress. :3

... We must've spent a good half an hour trying to figure out which crépes to pick. :|a But in the end, my sibling went with lemon and sugar, Plum went with dark chocolate and banana, Mon went with Nutella and hazelnut (with a scoop of vanilla ice cream on the side! \o/) and I went with Nutella and strawberry. Also with a scoop of vanilla ice cream on the side. Like a boss.

As we sat, we started to doodle - and ended up spending about an hour or so just... sitting and drawing and talking together. It was kind of surreal, really. Not that the whole trip wasn't, for me, but that part was especially surreal - seeing Plum and Mon draw right there was pretty awesome, though. They're both amazing artists. 83 Kick my ass out of the water, lol. |D

I still have Mon's picture from then, on a piece of paper. :'>

Either way, the rest of our trip consisted of us walking back to Union Station - where sibling and I had to catch the ride back to our city. o/` Plum had to leave right away, but Mon stayed for about twenty more minutes to talk... unfortunately, much of that time was eaten up by an angry phone call from my dad, who demanded to know why we hadn't called back after an hour despite it taking a significant amount of time to walk to the station...

... Either way! I really enjoyed myself. While it was definitely... foreign, to talk to people in real life (is that sad, that it's been so long that I feel stranger talking to people's faces than I do typing to their usernames?), it was enjoyable and both Plum and Mon are great conversationalists. I only hope I didn't end up drowning their voices out accidentally by talking as much as I did. :'<

... So, that's my trip! Now as for the one crappy thing about it - LEG PAIN. I still can't walk without stiffness.

Yes, that says a lot about how sedentary my life is. It's a bit of a wake-up call, admittedly. I don't know if it's enough of one, though... I mean, that would require motivation and I don't have a lot of that...

... But it's just another excuse, really. An excuse not to do anything. :| I dunno if I should let myself be making those anymore. /rolls

Oh, that brings me into my next pile of blargh - RP failure.

I have no idea what to do with this scenario I'm in. It's obvious that I need to do something about it, but it's so complex and full of awkwardness on every level and I am so incompetent in dealing with things like this. Part of me wants to just keep on ignoring it, but that's not productive anymore, and things will just keep getting worse if I don't do something.

... So it means I have to do something. But... then apathy and anxiety sets in. D8

It doesn't help that the situation just sucks. The mun is friendly with basically everybody except me... the mun is popular and well-liked and not, as far as I can tell, inherently a bad person. The character of the mun is everywhere, involved with practically everything, and invested with much of Robert's close CR.

But... the mun dislikes me, or Robert, or something. The mun refuses to speak to me, refuses to acknowledge me unless forced, and blatantly leaves me out of things on purpose. The mun never told me what I did wrong, if in fact I did do something wrong - and I am assuming so, because of the rest of these things. The mun has deleted me from Plurk and thus closed me out of most major dialogue.

Wonder if this all makes the mun really obvious...

It is obvious the mun wants nothing to do with me... And yet this radio silence is making RPing very difficult and full of awkward and fail.

:|

... IDK what to do, really. Has anybody ever been in a similar situation? I don't really want asspats - I mean, this situation is probably just as much my fault, or there must be something on my end, IDK - but I am curious as to what you other guys might do.

... And I'm also curious if this means I'm... I dunno, doing something stupid and not noticing. Am I just somehow giving off "asshole" impressions? Or... IDK. /Kanye shrug

Well, that's all the interesting stuff I had to say. Sorry for being so absent, guys... I just forget I even have a personal DW some days because my life is so boring it's not worth writing about. 8[

/rolls away~
semper_cogitans: (*facepalm*)

And me missing this was due to fail and not noticing GMail's stuff

[personal profile] semper_cogitans 2012-03-02 08:39 am (UTC)(link)
... you were not kidding when you said you had a tendency to tl;dr. /stares... But I like it. I like seeing all this laid out. :'D Just... give me awhile to try to organize this into some kind of coherent response...

To address your first reply:

Oh, yeah, that is definitely true; it's... not quite the same thing. But I figure the same rationales that keep me from attempting to friend that mun elsewhere applied to here - more or less. That being said, though, you definitely have a point - it's not a sign that someone doesn't like you if that person doesn't add you everywhere. It's just that this situation has various complicating factors that end up feeding into that. :|a

Wouldn't it be weird if I was your RL friend and had no idea?! /boggles ... No, it probably would be impossible. You would've had to have lived here before, and you haven't.

But. Asperger's is the Wikipedia self-diagnosis, which I think is where much of the disdain comes from - a lot of people use it as, frankly, excuses to be assholes without any remorse, which I don't want to do even if I do have something similar. (And I have no idea if I do or not.) I do hope that it doesn't seem like I'm being resentful of having my social faux pas pointed out though - I mean, I certainly appreciate the information when it's given to me.

Fffff, if I gave the impression of implicating anybody, then I apologize - I certainly don't think any of you guys would want to participate in this sort of clique mentality. None of you ever struck me as that kind of person. And the only person I've seen it from is... well... the singular mun. Everybody else just seems to kind of be involved-by-proxy (but not actually... doing anything themselves, i.e. not excluding me or anything like that).

And that much is probably true. I know that... well, more than one person here hasn't wanted to take sides. I don't really blame them, to be fair - I wouldn't want them to pick sides, either. But it just ends up being frustrating, because usually I can guess who's going to come out on the winning end. D8 ... Partially this is because I'm usually the one willing to take a fall, but eh. I just figure it's better for my self-esteem if I don't turn myself into the RP punching bag on other peoples' behalf, fff.

Not to say that compromise and sharing shouldn't happen. Ideally I'd want to share time with mutually-affected characters with this mun so everybody could be happy... or at least content. But that doesn't seem to be acceptable. D:

Herp. I suppose instead of yammering here I should be trying to talk to her. But I don't even know what to say...